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ongoing.by.dreams – countdown. from. five – 4 goes 3 – 28.02.13

ongoing.by.dreams _ countdown.from.five _ 4goes3dreamlap

 

end of linear time experiences

 

(4)3 steps

 

step 1

 

awake

 

me – sitting in my teenaged room

a small table with a vertical lamp in the middle of the table

the lamp crowned with a palm-leaves-light-umbrella

 

the table stands directly beside a wall

 

the east-south-west-north table – light-centered

 

the wall looks like to be the 1st guest of the table

I am second one

and face-to-face a female friend  – she is the third guest at the table

 

the fourth place (face-to-face to the wall) is still free

 

suddenly a “big (and endless – no begin – no end) stream of energy” (strong as the airpower of a

highspeed-train) comes through the wall – exactly surrounding the table – directly streaming to

the still empty fourth place – continuing straight into the room – ongoing to the endless

 

my friend and me – looking each other – into our eyes – YES – both of us realize the same phenomenon

 

we feel the strongness – we are surprised in one way – and not surprised in another way

 

we call it “the stream (train) of consciousness”

 

 

step 2

 

awake

 

me – as a mother – sitting in the joint flat of my teenaged daughter…

… knowing – in some years I have to release my mommyhood on her – and to go

–        (the flat already was/is rented to her name)

 

I feel something like “cold” but I know – I have to realize it

 

suddenly  – a very strong “stream (train) of consciousness goes trough the room – I am sitting in (I do

not remember the experience of my teenage yet)

 

I follow the phenomenon – it takes me to a journey all around the virtual world

 

at start I can only feel the energy of the stream (train)  by itself  – I am part of it – and I have no borders

(no individuality) – therefore the stream is me – and I am the stream (train)

 

“It”/”We” are streaming all around the virtual world to realize the look/manifestation/etc. of “human face(s)”….

one silhouette after the other …..about seven billion human output-potentials (?)… in a stream similar to “It”/”Us”

…like a twin or a mirror …only difference to this stream “We” try to face it: sometimes a roomed /bordered/hermetic

/manifested face becomes visible for half a second…

…minute by minute my mind becomes more used to follow the possibility to condense – to concrete – to densify

 

…after many many minutes – suddenly – one of the for-half-a-second-visible-faces gives a connecting-impulse to me

– I am yet still (in) the first stream(train)

 

that moment of the connecting-impulse I become face into my “own” stream – then both streams disappear – and I

dreamlap– with my “now found” face – sit in the room – like before

 

it is – like before – but it is totally new (mixed, centered)

 

now I invite all the seven billion (most not seen yet) humans on actual earth into my room – to be my guest – in my daily consciousness

 

and – I tell to them – in some years I will live in another flat – and I will invite them there too

 

LIVE DOES AT LEAST NOT CHANGE – even – if I have to change my physical home-place

 

we will always live in the same stream of consciousness

 

 

 

 

step 3

 

awake

 

I am 49 years old

 

I am sitting in my “own” work-lab-flat

 

I can start to develop some potential out of my own decision

 

I start into a next cycle

 

it is my birthday

 

first I was visited by my daughter und her boyfriend

then I was visited by my best-friends-couple

then I visited my parents

 

three generations of couples

 

me – standing free – to act

me – standing free to dismantle and dissolve

 

all me known patterns of masculine-to-feminine can liberalize now

it is my own decision

 

I am not in responsibility to anyone else – but my own understanding of humanity

 

once more the stream (train) of energy pulls through the room – this time I feel – like I have no (un[der]conscious) instinct-feeling-idea of a next step

I do not remember the two situations before

I do not remember the/a past

I do not imagine the/a future

 

I JUST DO THE STEP

 

 

Bernadette Stummer

One response to “ongoing.by.dreams – countdown. from. five – 4 goes 3 – 28.02.13”

  1. NATALIE says:

    dearest bernadette
    i finally have a moment to write you here, while looking at your image and text from the golden gate park. from where i am, large reproduced images of the “girl with the pearl earring” flank the building—advertising the slight painted lady housed inside the museum. we are sharing these vast halls with dutch painting masters, long gone from this life in physical form, but whose aesthetic imaginings linger on these painted canvasses.

    we will have our closing event for “social dreaming in the 21st century” tomorrow afternoon at 1 pm – followed by a reception, and we wish you could be here in the flesh to join in these musings on all things dream-related.

    we will send you more soon:

    in dreams,
    natalie and michael

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