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end of linear time experiences


(4)3 steps


step 1




me – sitting in my teenaged room

a small table with a vertical lamp in the middle of the table

the lamp crowned with a palm-leaves-light-umbrella


the table stands directly beside a wall


the east-south-west-north table – light-centered


the wall looks like to be the 1st guest of the table

I am second one

and face-to-face a female friend  – she is the third guest at the table


the fourth place (face-to-face to the wall) is still free


suddenly a “big (and endless – no begin – no end) stream of energy” (strong as the airpower of a

highspeed-train) comes through the wall – exactly surrounding the table – directly streaming to

the still empty fourth place – continuing straight into the room – ongoing to the endless


my friend and me – looking each other – into our eyes – YES – both of us realize the same phenomenon


we feel the strongness – we are surprised in one way – and not surprised in another way


we call it “the stream (train) of consciousness”



step 2




me – as a mother – sitting in the joint flat of my teenaged daughter…

… knowing – in some years I have to release my mommyhood on her – and to go

–        (the flat already was/is rented to her name)


I feel something like “cold” but I know – I have to realize it


suddenly  – a very strong “stream (train) of consciousness goes trough the room – I am sitting in (I do

not remember the experience of my teenage yet)


I follow the phenomenon – it takes me to a journey all around the virtual world


at start I can only feel the energy of the stream (train)  by itself  – I am part of it – and I have no borders

(no individuality) – therefore the stream is me – and I am the stream (train)


“It”/”We” are streaming all around the virtual world to realize the look/manifestation/etc. of “human face(s)”….

one silhouette after the other …..about seven billion human output-potentials (?)… in a stream similar to “It”/”Us”

…like a twin or a mirror …only difference to this stream “We” try to face it: sometimes a roomed /bordered/hermetic

/manifested face becomes visible for half a second…

…minute by minute my mind becomes more used to follow the possibility to condense – to concrete – to densify


…after many many minutes – suddenly – one of the for-half-a-second-visible-faces gives a connecting-impulse to me

– I am yet still (in) the first stream(train)


that moment of the connecting-impulse I become face into my “own” stream – then both streams disappear – and I

dreamlap– with my “now found” face – sit in the room – like before


it is – like before – but it is totally new (mixed, centered)


now I invite all the seven billion (most not seen yet) humans on actual earth into my room – to be my guest – in my daily consciousness


and – I tell to them – in some years I will live in another flat – and I will invite them there too


LIVE DOES AT LEAST NOT CHANGE – even – if I have to change my physical home-place


we will always live in the same stream of consciousness





step 3




I am 49 years old


I am sitting in my “own” work-lab-flat


I can start to develop some potential out of my own decision


I start into a next cycle


it is my birthday


first I was visited by my daughter und her boyfriend

then I was visited by my best-friends-couple

then I visited my parents


three generations of couples


me – standing free – to act

me – standing free to dismantle and dissolve


all me known patterns of masculine-to-feminine can liberalize now

it is my own decision


I am not in responsibility to anyone else – but my own understanding of humanity


once more the stream (train) of energy pulls through the room – this time I feel – like I have no (un[der]conscious) instinct-feeling-idea of a next step

I do not remember the two situations before

I do not remember the/a past

I do not imagine the/a future





Bernadette Stummer

One response to “ – countdown. from. five – 4 goes 3 – 28.02.13”

  1. NATALIE says:

    dearest bernadette
    i finally have a moment to write you here, while looking at your image and text from the golden gate park. from where i am, large reproduced images of the “girl with the pearl earring” flank the building—advertising the slight painted lady housed inside the museum. we are sharing these vast halls with dutch painting masters, long gone from this life in physical form, but whose aesthetic imaginings linger on these painted canvasses.

    we will have our closing event for “social dreaming in the 21st century” tomorrow afternoon at 1 pm – followed by a reception, and we wish you could be here in the flesh to join in these musings on all things dream-related.

    we will send you more soon:

    in dreams,
    natalie and michael

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