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end of linear time experiences


(4)3 steps


step 1




me – sitting in my teenaged room

a small table with a vertical lamp in the middle of the table

the lamp crowned with a palm-leaves-light-umbrella


the table stands directly beside a wall


the east-south-west-north table – light-centered


the wall looks like to be the 1st guest of the table

I am second one

and face-to-face a female friend  – she is the third guest at the table


the fourth place (face-to-face to the wall) is still free


suddenly a “big (and endless – no begin – no end) stream of energy” (strong as the airpower of a

highspeed-train) comes through the wall – exactly surrounding the table – directly streaming to

the still empty fourth place – continuing straight into the room – ongoing to the endless


my friend and me – looking each other – into our eyes – YES – both of us realize the same phenomenon


we feel the strongness – we are surprised in one way – and not surprised in another way


we call it “the stream (train) of consciousness”



step 2




me – as a mother – sitting in the joint flat of my teenaged daughter…

… knowing – in some years I have to release my mommyhood on her – and to go

–        (the flat already was/is rented to her name)


I feel something like “cold” but I know – I have to realize it


suddenly  – a very strong “stream (train) of consciousness goes trough the room – I am sitting in (I do

not remember the experience of my teenage yet)


I follow the phenomenon – it takes me to a journey all around the virtual world


at start I can only feel the energy of the stream (train)  by itself  – I am part of it – and I have no borders

(no individuality) – therefore the stream is me – and I am the stream (train)


“It”/”We” are streaming all around the virtual world to realize the look/manifestation/etc. of “human face(s)”….

one silhouette after the other …..about seven billion human output-potentials (?)… in a stream similar to “It”/”Us”

…like a twin or a mirror …only difference to this stream “We” try to face it: sometimes a roomed /bordered/hermetic

/manifested face becomes visible for half a second…

…minute by minute my mind becomes more used to follow the possibility to condense – to concrete – to densify


…after many many minutes – suddenly – one of the for-half-a-second-visible-faces gives a connecting-impulse to me

– I am yet still (in) the first stream(train)


that moment of the connecting-impulse I become face into my “own” stream – then both streams disappear – and I

dreamlap– with my “now found” face – sit in the room – like before


it is – like before – but it is totally new (mixed, centered)


now I invite all the seven billion (most not seen yet) humans on actual earth into my room – to be my guest – in my daily consciousness


and – I tell to them – in some years I will live in another flat – and I will invite them there too


LIVE DOES AT LEAST NOT CHANGE – even – if I have to change my physical home-place


we will always live in the same stream of consciousness





step 3




I am 49 years old


I am sitting in my “own” work-lab-flat


I can start to develop some potential out of my own decision


I start into a next cycle


it is my birthday


first I was visited by my daughter und her boyfriend

then I was visited by my best-friends-couple

then I visited my parents


three generations of couples


me – standing free – to act

me – standing free to dismantle and dissolve


all me known patterns of masculine-to-feminine can liberalize now

it is my own decision


I am not in responsibility to anyone else – but my own understanding of humanity


once more the stream (train) of energy pulls through the room – this time I feel – like I have no (un[der]conscious) instinct-feeling-idea of a next step

I do not remember the two situations before

I do not remember the/a past

I do not imagine the/a future





Bernadette Stummer

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